There are no lucky pennies for me today

since my life sux and this is basiacally the only place i can vent with out being annoying.. or to repeditive.... today was a very bad day.... i knew it was going to too!!... it all started when i woke up late and missed my first class

school wasent too bad,,, but its school... . when i got home my insurance had gone up to almost 70 dollars from 55......and then i had to go to work and they asked if i wanted to leave rite as i walked in the door... andi was like no.. i have got to work

and then i go on break and my car wont start... so i get this guy to help.. and he couldnt get it to workk.. and his baby was sick in the car and i felt so bad cause his baby was so pretty i love that baby

so i called my dad... and he tryed to help.. we went to walmart to get a battery.. wich was 95 dollars,, and it sucked to buy and it still didnt work so we have to see if it will work tomorow...

i cant help but hate my life sometimes... i know it could be worse, i feel like i am drowning in a sea of debt i have no money i hate work.. the only good thing is at least u guysstill lend an ear to hear me complain

i feel alone alot of the time... even though i call and talke to andy almost every day and you all on a frequent basis.. still its not enough and most of all i feel like a burden to almost everyone i feel like i cant be a good friend , agood student or a good daughter..

I HATE!! HATE being depressed and not happy... and if i dont have a tiny bit of fun or happiness in my life.. i basically hate the world.. and well ya......

I can only escape in to my mind for so long!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its a magical place where everything is good i have a nice home happy family plenty of money and an awsome job.. where i can just lay next to my loved one in peace and not have a care in the world..

i wish it was like that...

i hope i pray tomorow will be beter.. thats all i can say..

o ya one more thing

COME BACK TO ME ALL OF YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Eternally unwell- gee